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Apr. 22nd, 2002 09:48 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
saint_monkeyi had a dream,
where my teeth were loose, and i kept worrying about how i'd look if they fell out and damn those braces i had when i was sixteen, i always knew they'd make my teeth loose. they are loose all the time, when i suck on a sucker i can feel them popping about in there. sometimes i can push them with my tongue and they pop forward a bit. anyhow, in the dream they wobble back and forth, way more than the sligh techtonic budging that goes on in my mouth normally, these teeth are sailors on shoreleave, praying for the certain unstability of oceans and not this damned rocking boardwalk that is oh so hard when you kiss it, and some "hair of the dog," would hit the spot right now, have to get off the merry-go-round at the bar, the next time it comes weaving by... anyhow i am beset by memories of ten and twelve when i could dread a tooth loosening for days, pain that is too little to harm anyone and too large to ignore, and persistant in it's desire for attention, when visited, it is brief and spiky and dies so fast, and you want to touch the nerve again, just to see if it really hurt...now i get that pain sometimes, when i don't shave, when they pulled my wisdom teeth in the military, they left a tiny spur of bone in there, and every now and again it floats into a nerve, and my eyes well with tears and a hot pain like a plazing needle drives from my jaw, behind my eye and into my brain, intense, sharp, severe, and then gone, before i can even realize it. the dentists say they can't go n and get it, because if they mess up, i will continually feel that pain, instead of rarely, like i do now, tooth pain was like that, like an electric shock on a corroded switch... did it happen? i'm not sure? the only way to know for sure is to smack it once more with your tongue... until finally it was just hanging on, and it was just like that. finally i could just say "screwit" it's loose, there is no saving it now, and i'd push it out and it would break free and my mouth would fill with blood, it tastes just like sucking on a penny.
freud says dreams of teeth and losing teeth are manifestations of the fear of growing old. odd that a remembered pain of childhood would symbolize decay... but it seems so
true.
where my teeth were loose, and i kept worrying about how i'd look if they fell out and damn those braces i had when i was sixteen, i always knew they'd make my teeth loose. they are loose all the time, when i suck on a sucker i can feel them popping about in there. sometimes i can push them with my tongue and they pop forward a bit. anyhow, in the dream they wobble back and forth, way more than the sligh techtonic budging that goes on in my mouth normally, these teeth are sailors on shoreleave, praying for the certain unstability of oceans and not this damned rocking boardwalk that is oh so hard when you kiss it, and some "hair of the dog," would hit the spot right now, have to get off the merry-go-round at the bar, the next time it comes weaving by... anyhow i am beset by memories of ten and twelve when i could dread a tooth loosening for days, pain that is too little to harm anyone and too large to ignore, and persistant in it's desire for attention, when visited, it is brief and spiky and dies so fast, and you want to touch the nerve again, just to see if it really hurt...now i get that pain sometimes, when i don't shave, when they pulled my wisdom teeth in the military, they left a tiny spur of bone in there, and every now and again it floats into a nerve, and my eyes well with tears and a hot pain like a plazing needle drives from my jaw, behind my eye and into my brain, intense, sharp, severe, and then gone, before i can even realize it. the dentists say they can't go n and get it, because if they mess up, i will continually feel that pain, instead of rarely, like i do now, tooth pain was like that, like an electric shock on a corroded switch... did it happen? i'm not sure? the only way to know for sure is to smack it once more with your tongue... until finally it was just hanging on, and it was just like that. finally i could just say "screwit" it's loose, there is no saving it now, and i'd push it out and it would break free and my mouth would fill with blood, it tastes just like sucking on a penny.
freud says dreams of teeth and losing teeth are manifestations of the fear of growing old. odd that a remembered pain of childhood would symbolize decay... but it seems so
true.
