saint_monkey | hidden journals

i think it's really cool that you don't mind if your mom reads your journals. i wish i could be that way; i've always hidden everything i've written from my family. i've always had a fear, and still do, that i'll die before my parents, and they'll come to clean out my apartment and read all my journals. i used to keep them in manilla envelops and wrote on the outside "if anything ever happens to me, destory these!! do not read them!!" i have my current webpage hidden away so they can't find my livejournal. it's a freedom thing for me -- i always fought to get away from them and do my own thing, mentally and geographically :}

in any case, your mom must be a neat lady

this has got me thinkin. (uh oh)
would i destroy a journal found in such a manner? especially if i loved that person dearly and it was a link to a private side of them that they never exposed. the TRUE side of them. the back of the closet hidden under the socks in a secret compartment stuff. perhaps it contains things that would hurt me. perhaps it would contain things that would make me love them even more... think about it. would YOU destroy it? or would you read it?

(on a related note, isn't that how emily dickenson's works were discovered, in a trunk in her house after she died? or did i just dream it? ..."because i could not stop for death...")